Memories I can't return to drift around me

[bearshermark]

WHO: Eleven, Yennefer, and Moiraine
WHEN: January
WHERE: Around the lighthouse!
WHAT: Plot roll things + other stuff
WARNINGS: Talk of killing. Solicited? murder

[Prompts in comments]

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[cairhien]

Yennefer's offer is considered only for a moment before Moiraine nods, slipping her dagger away. If it could be done quickly, without blood spilled, as mercifully as possible.

She's about to say something to the other woman on it when Eleven moves first, surprising her with the motion.

"You say without pain and then do so?" Her tone is chastising. Whilst the bodies might not react would it be felt in their sleep, in the hell it already was for them?

"Blades aren't painless." Even if she'd offered her dagger herself.

[violetchaos]

Yennefer's attention moves between the two others before violet eyes drop to the Sleepers closest to her. They were still so young, but without much to live for, though not if they were stuck in their minds.

She moves to collect a woman's hand that had slipped off the edge of the slab -- the same woman that grabbed hold of her, leaving a dark bruising mark on her forearm.

Moiraine had a point, but she wouldn't interfere. So, she stayed quiet.

[bearshermark]

Eleven's steps pause. He turns back to the woman with a frown, then beyond her, Yennefer.

"I've seen many bloodless deaths," he rejoined quietly. "They didn't look painless."

He takes the last few steps to the furthest Sleeper. "But I'm a healer, so I know how to.." Eleven trails off, then shakes his head. "They're asleep so they won't feel fear, and it's quick enough that they won't have time to feel pain."

He knows all this, but even so, the sword is a weight in his hands as he lifts it, point poised for what he knows will be as close to instant death as he can grant.

"Merciful Goddess, forgive me for lacking the strength or wisdom to save these souls. I pray they find peace."

Metal pierces through in a moment of resolute strength, though that wavers swiftly enough in the grisly aftermath. Eleven breathes, then disengages his blade with as much care as he can manage. He stares for a moment, the hopelessness of the task settling over him again, doubting, then eyes the blood staining the end of his sword.

"Is this really all we can do..?"

[cairhien]

"They may not feel it where we stand but they felt enough in their dreams."

They may not feel this and it would be a blessing if not, but a sword was not always the answer, a choice to be made. And not a choice made alone.

She turned from him as he continued, stepping aside to another part of the room. Though his next question came with some irony given the course they'd already agreed, and those that had already died.

"For those now dead it is, and too late to give them another choice." She understood it, killing wasn't a simple task, something she didn't relish doing but actions that had been taken when necessary. And they'd found no other mercies to grant them, knew too little to help them in another way if help could even be given.

[violetchaos]

Yennefer moves on the other side of the third person in the row of people, opposite of where Eleven was when he took the first person's life with his sword. She looks down, unknowingly committing the man's face to memory whose life she will end. But, she listens to Moiraine as she quietly utters a language neither of them would understand and holds a hand flat over his heart.

In a matter of moments, he stops breathing.

"You said they could never wake and Moiraine spoke of them wanting to die. They must have known there was no other way."

Yennefer shifts and utters the same words again over a woman next.

[bearshermark]

The sentiments are sensible and familiar of course, but still his heart wavers. Nothing else can be done, though he dearly wishes otherwise. It's the cruelest of kindnesses. Eleven swallows and raises his sword again, arms shaking, and it's only that desperate wish not to inflict more pain than necessary that sees the deed done a second time.

But this time, as he endures the grisly extraction of his sword and watches the trickles of blood run, and strength flees his limbs. Doubts creep through his veins and twist his stomach. Eleven backs up and barely keeps hold of his weapon between nerveless fingers, paler than before.

"I can't.. I'll do worse with the others."