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let's set d o w n some ([personal profile] groundrules) wrote in [community profile] westwhere2022-08-01 07:33 pm

the mouse house


Welcome to Serthica’s Mouse House — a mini plot roll for recent newcomers, lasting until 11 August. Characters who opted in are in a different physical location but can contact the group at sea through their communicators. You can use the log post below to top level and mingle, or you can make your own logs and posts.



THE MOUSE HOUSE




Characters awaken in the dessert, unburied from high sands, recovering in medical tents or drifting towards a caravan. After a day to mend, they are presented to the caravan leader — the Merchant, who provides them translation and communication devices.

He explains they are outsiders who have reached the world of Akhuras, where undead factions wage war with each other and the living. The undead summon otherworldly conscripts, to enslave or weaponise them in the conflict. The Merchant finds and transports such newcomers east, where beacons might return the visitors back to their home worlds. Other otherworldly guests are currently travelling the haunted Crossing Seas — the Merchant offers their names.

The group at sea will reach the beacon-bearing clockwork citadel of Serthica within days. Caravan newcomers are supplied 10,000 coins each, blade weapons and ship passage to the impoverished Mouse House — the underground outskirts of Serthica and home to beggars, smugglers, contrived thief networks and mercenaries. Here, they must complete a set of tasks to wrangle, muscle, thieve or bribe coveted Serthica passport papers for themselves and their incoming comrades. Good luck!




CHEESE FOR THE WHINE

■ The Mouse House is the literal industrialised underworld that surrounds Serthica. Coarse and labyrinthine, it has the gargantuan width of a very large vessel (50m). Here and there, crumbled makeshift stone roads show defunct rail tracks underneath. One train still runs in the outmost pathway of the Mouse House, taking daily imported coal shipments from the port to Serthica.

■ Often filthy, dangerous and entirely cavernous, the Mouse House comprises several crammed community homes — ‘rat mounds’ — some small illicit trade and forgery shops, and hideouts for opiate suppliers, slavers and thieves. Sleep lightly and watch your backs.

■ A pathway leads out to the ports. There are no windows, and the stuffy air is unhelped by limited ventilation. A strong scent of sedative incense blooms in the air to keep the criminal population tame(r).

■ Characters are taken in by Ma’am Mariol, the benevolent matronly leader of a ring of orphans who provide courier and espionage services for the various overlords of the Mouse House. Enjoy her hospitality: dried bread, questionable soup and a resting place in her breezy enclosures.

Ma’am Mariol looks after 12 valiant urchins. You can enlist their services but expect they’ll want pay.

■ Twice a day, at 6:00 and 18:00, the Mouse House suffers a dull shudder for a few minutes, as if suffering the echoes of a distant, rippling earthquake. Ma’am Mariol shares this is because the two city halves of Serthica are starting to swap places: Eidris comes up in the morning, while Minaras is overground at night. They only meet for one hour during the swap.




✘ PRIME OPPORTUNITY

Win passage into Serthica by completing quests from the list below. Multiple people can tackle the same assignment. Report in by 23:59 GMT on 10 August for your gains.

PLOY & PLUNDER

Highly superstitious gang leader Artemius Bale is holding a festivity to celebrate conquering the territory of former rival Edward Three-Hands . The crème de la crème of the Mouse House’s underworl attends in a bustling, tight space. Despite his recent victory, Artemius remains heavily paranoid and keeps his cronies on guard.

■ Steal decent garments and function invitations from attendees to join the party.

Ease the pockets of the many criminal merrymakers, while they’re enjoying their fine wine. The more coin you can collect for later bribes, the better.

■ Pass for one of the many séance holders and ‘necromancers’ Artemius Bale has commissioned to entertain his guests. Coax attendees that the dead want them to patron incoming travellers — You may need to pair up and simulate a few ‘haunting’ tricks to persuade them of your great necromantic talent.

■ Why not pull a fast one on old fox Artemius? You could even persuade him he has been cursed by Edward Three-Hands and will fall deathly ill or unable to enjoy his gains if he does not make amends for his wrongdoings… to your benefit.



ALL ABOARD

A time-honoured fixture of Serthica, the single coal train typically enters the Mouse House each day at 11:00 without threat or trouble. Loaded to brim, it brings in fuel and smuggled goods.

Come early morning, Ma’am Mariol’s orphan scouts mention the latest 6:00 shake has toppled large pieces of stone and metallic debris over a segment of the railway. As the train approaches, Serthica officials send word that anyone who breaks their backs helps clear out the tracks by 13:00 will earn considerable good will with the citadel’s distraught customs office.

■ Grab a shovel. Use it wisely.

■ Careful with the various oversized rats that haunt the filthier depths of the Mouse House — they typically avoid groups of humans, but will jump you if you’re alone.



THE SCRIBE

Serthica’s most skilled forger, Rayssa is returning to the Mouse House after months of imprisonment in the citadel. She brings along decades of experience crafting passport papers — and a wealth of debt collectors who want the coin she owed before her disappearance.

It is widely known she will visit One-Eye Calliope’s tavern as her first point of call, to enjoy a first drink in freedom. Her pursuers will be waiting for her, armed, prickly and ready.

■ Win Rayssa’s good will and services by rescuing her from the inevitable bar brawl.

■ Head into her heavily watched quarters in the Mouse House to collect her tools of trade — inks, parchments, pens and stencils.

■ Hold her watch or her hair while a heavily inebriated Rayssa writes up your forged passport papers.



LADY LUCK LOVES YOU

If you’re no fan of honest looting, leave your fate to chance: the Mouse House’s various taverns and gathering places host nightly gambling games, from cards to bone dice, arm wrestling and a local favourite, mouse races.

Pair up to rig the games in your favour, and win coin, passport forgeries, clandestine passage or a crime lord’s patronage. You never know what favour the right name can earn you later!

QUESTIONS

NPC CONTACT

GAINS


GRAB A FRIEND

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[personal profile] thedreamer 2022-08-03 05:22 am (UTC)(link)
[ As is typical whenever the Doctor finds himself thrust into a strange, new world, he finds he has more questions than answers at first, though he never worries because he always gets the answers he needs eventually. Though, admittedly, not always as quickly as he'd like. That's been the case now, stuck here of all places, and it's particularly agonizing to be separated from his ship. He could have smuggled all of his fellow wayward companions into the safe confines of his steady old girl and gotten them all out of here. But that's not the point, is it? Much too easy, that would have been.

Where they are now, well, it's a complex and mysterious puzzle, no more and no less. And he does so love a good puzzle. They'll all eventually get where they need to go, in due time, of that he has no doubt. Along the way, he's been eager to learn more about the companions he finds himself with. They've all been brought here for a purpose, they're all they've got at the moment. That, too, is something he's all too familiar with. By his own design, that's essentially been the life he's always led; collecting friends through the years to travel with him through time and space, from the beginning of the universe to the end, and all points in between. He may not have chosen this particular destination himself, but here they are.

Recognizing the opportunity in the party being held tonight by Artemius Bale, the Doctor charmed his way into an invite, actually and properly dressed himself, and now finds himself mingling amongst the crowd, making sure he finds the right people to speak with.

When he notices a familiar face from the orphanage, the Doctor lingers nearby, observing quietly, intrigued and interested in knowing more about her. When he has the chance, he takes a seat and eyes the Tarot cards. He won't linger long; she's made a good fortune thus far and they all need as much as they can get. ]


How does this work, exactly?
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[personal profile] matermali 2022-08-03 05:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Vanessa's smile is poised as the man sits. He appears as normal as any man, but there are times when she looks to him and her vision narrows to a pinprick. She doesn't understand it, and it leaves her wary, but not unfriendly. He's also one of the few without a proper name, and that's something to take heed. She must expect that there will be things here she doesn't understand. After all, Satan wants her to be caught off guard, doesn't he?

She's pulling the Tarot cards in from the last client, gently shuffling them. She doesn't like them, really, but nothing can replace Joan Clayton's Tarot. Vanessa has never used another set, and if she hadn't made this one herself (crude as it is), she's not sure she would bother. There are other tools.

He seems interested in these ones, however, and so she'll begin laying them back out. Slowly. Every card has its place. ]


You think it a science you can decipher? You may find disappointment in place of answers.
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[personal profile] thedreamer 2022-08-04 12:53 am (UTC)(link)
In fact, I thought the cards were pretty and your command of a room is impeccable, to say the least. [ He laces his fingers together, leaning forward on his forearms; closer, but not invading her space. He just - doesn't always have the best concept of boundaries when he's particularly enthused about something new. This isn't to say that this sort of thing is new to him. Hardly. No, he's met many soothsayers, fortune tellers, magicians, magical creatures, all manner of beings throughout the universe. ]

And here I am, your captive audience.
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[personal profile] matermali 2022-08-04 03:14 am (UTC)(link)
[ That draws a bigger smile out of her, though only momentarily. She's charmed. Anyone could have seen her making these Tarot cards while in the orphanage, and so normally she would assume it to be empty flattery (which is boring). She doesn't feel that's the case here, but it is overly kind. The cards are basic, barely more than paper, and nothing like what she's used to. They're temporary at best, until she can find a better replacement. ]

An audience observes.

[ She doesn't shy from his attentions, and once she's laid out the cards face-down, she also leans in closer with a tilt to her head, her voice little more than a rasp. It's a wonder it can carry through the bustle of the party, but then there isn't much distance between them. ]

For it to work, you must participate. Be complicit. You must have cause to reach out—[ She'll nod to his hands. ]—and touch the demimonde. Do you believe in such things, Doctor?
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[personal profile] thedreamer 2022-08-04 04:24 am (UTC)(link)
[ In his experience, much of what others have observed as being magic or something mythical and otherworldly can often be explained by science. That's not to say truly fantastical things defying scientific explanation aren't possible, but his experiences have led to the opposite being true, more often than not.

He's fascinated by Vanessa and what he's seen her do. He wants to understand more. What's at the heart of her? What's beyond these so-called parlor tricks? ]


Many things, actually. We might be here a long while. [ A bit of levity because he can't really help himself. He might do with taking things more seriously more often, but in this life, this version of him, he's gradually taking things less and less seriously. For better or worse. ]

If you believe, it's enough to convince me. [ He says it so genuinely because he really does mean it. He loves people, loves getting to know them and understand them. Vanessa is so convincing that he can't help wanting to follow her down this path, wherever it may lead. Answers or no answers.

He does, though, move one of his hands, hovering over the cards. ]
Do I ask a question?
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[personal profile] matermali 2022-08-04 09:08 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Many things. She'd like to hear of these things, and must remember to ask when the time is appropriate. Vanessa can't help but be reminded of Victor, who accepted the supernatural while at the same time doing his utmost to find an explanation for it. Unfortunate, really, because in Vanessa's experience, every answer found only betrays another question.

She's quick to reach out, careful not to touch, but guiding his hand through her own movements to hover over the ribbon of cards arced away from him, half-surrounding the ones she's already laid out. He must select the final piece of the puzzle. Eyes still trained on him, she slowly pulls her hand back to settle her fingertips on the table's edge. ]


Do you have a question, or do you have a need? It must be more than want. It must be necessary. [ There's a scratchy sigh as she speaks, her voice drifting lower and lower. Something inside of her—invisible but present—moves between her words, slithering beneath the tablecloth and ruffling the edges of a card or two, before stopping still at the overturned cascade of cards he's meant to choose from. ] Close your eyes. Feel it move through you; that which you seek.
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[personal profile] thedreamer 2022-08-05 04:53 am (UTC)(link)
[ There wasn't a need when he first approached her, not that he was conscious of, in any case. Nothing particularly that compelled him to speak with her apart from his insatiable curiosity and a thought that he might be able to help her attract ever more clients by giving her an enthusiastic endorsement. There's so much about her to unravel, he's just getting started. But, equally, it seems, she may be discerning a thing or two about him.

He doesn't know what he believes about what's about to happen, but his words do hold true; he believes her, and so, he'll follow where she leads him. ]


One very important question, actually. One that's kept me up since we got here. Did I leave the kettle on in my TARDIS before we were separated? [ He's often cracking jokes like this, that's nothing new, but he's perhaps a bit more inclined to it in the moment because the other question she asked - do you have a need - is what's really pulling at him. Every hour of every day, if he's honest. Yes, he does have a need. ] I won't forgive myself if anything's happened. Oh, sorry. Of course. Focus, Doctor.

[ It's a momentary distraction, a chance for him to catch his breath. Is he ready for what happens next? What will be revealed? What will she see?

He does, at last, close his eyes, taking a deep breath, focusing on the great need inside of him, the one that he thinks is dormant, the terrible secret. He's told friends the truth of what he's done, it's not that he carries it all alone. But no one knows the depth of the pain, not really. No one knows exactly what happened that day, no one knows that he knows precisely how many children were on Gallifrey that dark and terrible day. But his great and necessary need is hidden, not said aloud, so it couldn't possibly make itself known now. He thinks he's safe, even as he feels the familiar echoing dark creep at the edges of his mind. ]
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[personal profile] matermali 2022-08-05 07:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Vanessa almost chuckles at his jest, but he won't get proper results if he's too dismissive, so instead she'll offer a light 'tsk' of friendly disapproval while watching, her gaze occasionally flicking down now to follow where his hand moves. She doesn't know what a TARDIS is, but she can guess from context that it's his home. Charming.

Then, he closes his eyes and the air warms; Vanessa feels it. It had already been plenty warm. She watches and says nothing at first. His hand has stopped, still hovering.

If his curiosity is insatiable, then he's already trapped in her thrall, and Vanessa knows it. She's slow to reach across the table, leaving him to stew in anticipation (perhaps a punishment for his earlier attempt at the cavalier). Her hand creeps just beneath his to take the card, only a gentle stirring of the air tickling his skin when Vanessa pulls his choice from the table's edge to join the six card spread. It's flipped with a gentle care, and a murmur of alarm follows. X of Swords. The ten blades all pierce a dead rat's back. The card is reversed, leaving the simplistic illustration twisted around to gaze blankly up at The Doctor should he open his eyes. He may have been jesting. She still considers his question more carefully then she did before. This is not a card anyone should want to see, and her smile is gone. ]


And so, we begin at the end. [ By instinct, Vanessa has begun the Tarot reading backwards. Already, she knows this wasn't by chance. It doesn't matter if his eyes stay closed or open, so long as he's reaching an understanding. The more he does, so too does she, and the red thread of fate that earlier stretched out now tugs at their fingertips. Closer. ] The little kettle has long since been consumed by inferno, hasn't it? Do you wonder about what you left behind, then? What you continue to leave behind? Your trinkets? No. People? ...Memories?

[ The middle card is flipped. Page of Cups. A man with a flowing scarf holds an oversized goblet. Vanessa's sigh is sharp, and her voice lowers. ]

Memories are no different than ghosts. They haunt some more than others, but they now guide our present as much as they once did our past. Is it wrong to worry about them, then? Can you love someone if you miss them? It's a selfish thing, to miss anyone or anything. And so, you carry on. Don't be selfish. Ever forward. Ever backward.

[ She draws a breath, hesitating over the next card, and a dreamy glaze takes over as her voice begins to tremble. ]

What a kind teacher. What a sharp teacher. They teach you, too, don't they? Beautiful lessons. Horrible failures. Oh... But, so beautiful. They break the heart.

[ The third card is flipped. VII of Pentacles, with the number of pentacles drawn to match. Vanessa's voice drops to a whisper that scratches at the air. There isn't enough air. It seems to grow hotter. She's thirsty. These cards aren't right. The Seven of Pentacles and Ten of Swords ought to be swapped. Time isn't as it should be. ]

How lucky that it grows back. How lonely. Does it hurt? Is it a sweet kind of ache?
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[personal profile] thedreamer 2022-08-07 06:38 am (UTC)(link)
[ There's a visible shift in the air between them now. At least for the Doctor, it feels like the air is suddenly choked off. Difficult to catch his breath, though outwardly, he doesn't look panicked so much as cautious, nervous. Not a very good poker face, this one, but he'll manage. Looking back, he's not entirely sure what he expected to come of this, though he'd hoped for a chance to learn a bit more about her. He certainly has now, far beyond anything he could have possibly fathomed.

It's rare indeed for the Doctor to have an experience like this so quickly after meeting someone. To be suddenly known in ways he would have preferred - and has - long kept secret. Secrets have always kept him safe. He should have been more cautious and careful in approaching her, he realizes that now. The hint of a mystery about her drew him in, though, and he couldn't resist. He is now laid bare, vulnerable, feeling like he's on display.

Were he in possession of his psionic abilities in full force here, the Doctor would be seriously considering touching his fingers to Vanessa's temples and erasing all of this from her mind. But he's not capable of it physically, and as quickly as the thought enters his mind, he realizes he's not capable of it emotionally right now, either. It's a rare thing indeed, for the Doctor to squelch that urge to manipulate, to take away the knowledge of something that was stolen essentially, something precious - his memories - but it's only because the other part of him, the good part, rises to the surface. She hasn't seen everything, she doesn't know every facet of him and his life, but she's seen enough for him to be worried about a few different things.

What will she do with this knowledge? He doesn't sense deliberate malice from her, not a desire to harm, to twist, to tread out someone's memories for personal gain. No, he'd sensed compassion from her with other clients. Though, he's miscalculated this entire encounter, perhaps he's wrong about her intentions as well.

So, his next worry is, what is the price she pays for this ability? He may not understand it fully yet, where it comes from, the scope of it, what it is exactly, but he's seen enough of this similar power in the universe to know there is often - nearly always - a consequence for having an ability such as this.

As much as he wants to protect himself, a thought nags at him now, that he wants to protect her, too.

Many thoughts run through his mind, all in very quick succession. The Doctor's mind is always spinning so fast, a million thoughts per second. He wants to do right now what he's always done when faced with something heavy; he wants to run. He would run to his ship and leave if he could, but he can't. He's stuck facing this, at least for the moment. He might worry more at what she'd do with this knowledge of him, yet perhaps they can come to an understanding of one another. ]


Why don't you tell me? Does it hurt? I watched you with the others earlier. You don't just...show these cards and interpret them, you feel them. You carry it. What must that be like? Lonely, is it? [ Calling back her question to him. ]
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[personal profile] matermali 2022-08-10 05:19 am (UTC)(link)
[ His interruption seems to grab her attention and hold it, her hand frozen and her daydream of a gaze almost beginning to focus again; as if she were just shaken awake. For the slightest of moments, Vanessa is wide-eyed and stunned, her confusion apparent in how her head tilts to the oddest of angles. Almost playful. She's still Vanessa, of course, but she's hardly Miss Ives, anymore.

The tole it takes is high, no doubt. This was a risk that she...perhaps, shouldn't have taken so quickly. ]


You already asked your question, Doctor.

[ Now, her smile is coy. She's being carried by the reading, unable to stay rooted in her own reality. Vanessa now exists in the in-between—the demimonde—and here there's no cruelty or kindness. There's only truth and secrets. But the secrets are opening, and Truth hurts.

Vanessa squeezes her eyes tightly shut as if blinded when she flips the next card. The Hanged Man. ]


But it's in your nature to seek answers. To flip them on their head. To look at them back to front, side to side, inside and out. To sacrifice yourself for them. You must know that truth is not the same as justice. Yet...you wanted it to be so, didn't you?

[ Her eyes stay shut, her hand settled over The Hanged Man, his simple form drawn upside down with one leg tucked behind the other. She's having trouble drawing her hand away to the next card, as if trapped. Then, there's the softest little hum that can be heard if one listens closely through the distant shrieks of laughter and endless chatter. She doesn't speak any words; she just hums. ]
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[personal profile] thedreamer 2022-08-11 04:26 pm (UTC)(link)
You know the answer to that. [ That momentary flash of her, of seeming lucidity and cognizance amongst the madness of what she's seeing and feeling, adds another layer of depth and complexity to this.

It's when she begins to hum that song, that beautiful, haunting song that stood shoulder to shoulder with him as he faced down that parasite that fed on memories, that he begins to truly unravel. He's unsettled in a way that he hasn't been in a very, very long time. And he's alone here. He's grateful that Clara isn't here, that she's safe, but conversely, he's also selfishly desperate for her now. She'd know what to do better than him; it's the way of things, with the people he travels with. So brilliant, so beautiful, so much better than him, always better, and he's so proud. But that guilt that Vanessa speaks of, it's there churning around with his memories of everyone he's ever loved and lost. His friends, they've always been the best of him, but he's ruined so many of them in one way or another.

That thought brings him back to Vanessa now. There's a chance to help her somehow. This shouldn't be so, this shouldn't be happening. How could she know that song? What is this power inside of her, what is it capable of, and what is it doing to her? At least from where he's sitting, it seems so similar to the parasite he'd faced only recently himself.

He reaches out now to try and cover and stay her hand, if it's even possible. She seems trapped by it now, as though it needs to progress to its natural and eventual end. But if there's any chance at all of stopping it, he'll try. ]


Stop this. [ His voice is low, but firm, decisive. ] Vanessa, stop this now.

[ Not for his sake, even; for hers. ]
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[personal profile] matermali 2022-08-11 11:51 pm (UTC)(link)
[ The touch makes her gasp with a start, her shoulders stiffening, though her eyes remain closed for a lingering moment. His hand burns her. It hurts. She whimpers, but it's ragged as though smoke burns her lungs. So many bodies. Pieces of metal torn open, with strange lights dancing about inside as death seems to find even those without souls.

Her hand rips away as her eyes fly open, and Vanessa jerks backwards so suddenly that her chair rocks momentarily. With her hand clutched against her chest as if it's been scalded, Vanessa stares at The Doctor with a wild tremor keeping her eyes from holding completely steady.

He is a vortex. He will consume you. He's too powerful. He's too Other.

That was no red thread of fated love tugging at their fingertips; it was the silk string of a spider's web, trapping them for a cosmic supper. ]


...You shouldn't be here.

[ Not at the table. Here. In her world. This should be her world, and nobody else's. But he isn't set dressing. He is real, isn't he? He's real. He isn't a hallucination. But he isn't Lucifer. ...Is he? Could Lucifer's deception run so deep? Has she overestimated herself? She's trembling. Terrified. ]
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[personal profile] thedreamer 2022-08-13 05:17 am (UTC)(link)
[ It's been a long time since someone has recoiled in horror from him, though it's happened. His name, after all, is synonymous with both healer and wise man, and warrior. He brings as much fear in his wake as he does hope, though he'd always prefer to bring more of the latter.

In this case, he's barely been here at all and he's already terrified his young companion. She's tormented, though by what, he doesn't know exactly. At this precise moment, though, it's him. It's what he's done (or so he assumes), it's who he is, the deep dark inside of him; he thinks she must have seen it somehow, or glimpses of it possibly, and it's terrified her. The look in her eyes haunts him, the consequences of what he's done reflected through her eyes.

When she stumbles back, whimpering and trembling, his instinct is to soothe with words, with an offered touch, but that seems to have made all of this worse. ]


I shouldn't be. None of us should be here. [ He's worried about her, desperately so, but his voice is calm and steady, though he keeps a distance between them. ] We'll find our way back to where we're supposed to be, we all will - together - but right now, here is where we are. And you're not alone. I'm here and I want to help, do you understand?
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[personal profile] matermali 2022-08-13 05:32 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Any verbal response is delayed while Vanessa lingers in her disoriented state, finally blinking away the tears that had somehow gathered. She can't remember the song she was humming, but she remembers the feeling that came with it as her fingertips flutter beneath her eyes to wipe at a damp cheek. With her breathing slowed, Vanessa finds that her lungs no longer hurt. She is still dizzy, but then she was before this reading started. That won't ease. Her sense of self, however, is righting itself.

The fragments of his life that had funneled into her remain, but she can now parse them; organize and separate them from her own life's traumas. His pain, his loneliness and regret, his anger and his hope, all of it still churns inside of her. Her tiny frame shouldn't be able to hold so much, and yet every time, she finds room. The ephemeral has no limit, though it's a wonder it doesn't drive her mad.

No, he isn't the Devil. He carries too much regret. He does what need be done, but without the pleasure a demon would partake in. ]


No. You shouldn't be here. You are not of this world. Not of my world, yet...you are no demon.

[ There's no anger in her voice as she unveils her confusion, only trepidation. He isn't any type of supernatural creature she's met before, and she can't understand how he connects to the Underworld. Unless? ...An angel?

Her fear heightens. If an angel of God was sent for her, Vanessa can't dare hope any longer that it's to save her. If it's come to end her curse by whatever means necessary, to prevent the Hell she's destined to unleash on the world, then she ought to embrace such an end, shouldn't she?

But she doesn't. The selfish part of her digs in, and her nails bits into her wrist as she slowly stands. God's angels didn't come for her when she prayed for them, but now they dare to extend their hand? Cruel. ]


Save your misguided mercy for your own repentance. I know the path that I tread, and it is one of solitude. You answered my call too late.
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[personal profile] thedreamer 2022-08-14 03:51 am (UTC)(link)
[ It's not the first time in his long existence that he hasn't been there when someone needed him, friend and stranger alike. It isn't possible to save everyone in every pocket of the universe who has ever cried out for help, but that doesn't stop his hearts from aching for just a moment to know - to see - what she's suffered through and when she asked for help, nothing and no one came. He didn't personally let her down, but he can wish that she'd had better. ]

I'm sorry. I'm sorry that you needed someone and you were alone. But you are not now, you won't be.

[ Still, he keeps his distance. Can't risk making it all worse for her, she's been through enough as it is.

She doesn't need to suddenly accept his offering, nor would she. He's frightened her and he's a stranger from a strange land. But at least for the time being, he's not going anywhere anytime soon. None of them are. ]


I'll tell you what I am another time. It's more than enough for one day, I think.
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[personal profile] matermali 2022-08-14 04:25 am (UTC)(link)
[ I'm sorry. She holds her breath, and his tiny little apology echoes with Red's own. Both of them have said they're sorry for a curse they had nothing to do with. They both have something in them—around them—that draws Vanessa in even while she clenches her teeth and steels for the worst.

The two of them are beings who are greater than their appearance suggests. Vanessa had thought that girl-who-was-no-girl was there to tempt her, and now she thinks The Doctor could be here to end her should she give in to that temptation. She can no longer trust that this is a mere hallucination.

Suddenly uncertain if she can trust any of her senses, Vanessa looks from him down to the cards, glaring at the unfinished reading. She's too afraid to continue, and there's hesitance even when she reaches to gather up the cards, as though merely touching them will send her into another fit. ]


I know what you are. I know what you have done.

[ The cards are shoved into her skirt's pocket before she crosses her arms protectively, fingers digging into her elbows in a defensive stance. She keeps her voice low, still, unwilling to draw attention from others at this point in time. ]

You are here to keep me from doing the same. You waste your time, and you underestimate my will.
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[personal profile] thedreamer 2022-08-14 05:15 am (UTC)(link)
You're making a very big mistake assuming that you know anything at all about me. [ A bluff, and probably a bad one at that. He's seen it in her eyes, what she knows of him now. She's surely seen it reflected back in his eyes, too. That he's aware she's caught a glimpse of the darkness in him. She only knows a part of it, though, and he only knows a part of it when it comes to her in return. ]

Maybe not today, but soon, I hope, you'll tell me what it is I'm meant to keep you from doing. [ Again, he knows what she's implying. The total destruction, desolation, to which she's referring. But he wants more of it in her own words. Specifics. ] You see things, certainly, but I'm very sure that what you think you know is all very, very wrong. I am going to help you, one way or another. And I do mean, help you. Not harm you. Not ever. And if anything else is trying to harm you, it'll answer to me.

[ Whether or not she believes that doesn't entirely matter at the moment. He doesn't need her to believe it for it to be true. ]
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[personal profile] matermali 2022-08-14 05:42 am (UTC)(link)
[ What she sees, she doesn't like, and not for any ill will towards the man-who-is-not-a-man. She doesn't like it because it's too much of what she fears for herself. That loneliness may crush her until her body is broken and the Evil can spill out, and then there will be nothing left of what she once loved. Vanessa glares not at him, but at herself.

She's been foolish. She's been overconfident in her assessment of this world. And perhaps he can see that, too, that even her iron will has cracks in it, all the way down to the foundation. Vanessa isn't certain what he sees; she only knows what she sees. Admittedly, fear of being seen eventually forces her to turn away (though not her back, not completely). ]


You ought to stop making promises that you can't keep.

[ It's whispered with an anguished strain. Vanessa doesn't judge him for it, but she still fears it. Even if she's wrong about his purpose here, she isn't wrong about the danger he represents. His hope can kill.

Vanessa needs air, except, there's really not much of that down here. Still, she's moving from the table, not even bothering to go looking for Fei. She just wants out, to shake and weep and pray where nobody can see her. That isn't going to happen, not here, so she'll have to do it all in the space of her mind. ]


Forgive me, but I am tired. Have a good evening, Doctor.