My... selfish act? ( When she looks at him, she feels raw, impotent, her hands breaking, her back bowed. As if she is a small and wretched thing, a person lessened. )

How... how am I... how are we selfish? ( In keeping a village alive, in securing everyone's welfare. Aren't they, if anything, Yancai's only champions? Has she not done enough? Would her son not approve? )