( she gives clara a look that means to say well, i'm fucked before finishing her sandwich. even if she knows that everyone here will fiercely try to tell her that she isn't alone. but how much does that mean when you don't know anyone, really? )

I would like to wake up... except being in this village feels real. It feels like I'm here even if the past-- I don't actually know how long I've been here, but... even if that was fake.

( the train actually felt more like a dream but she did both sleep a lot and drink a lot )

This might not be the right place or where I should be but... I feel here. Annoyingly.