[Especially the one she just dealt with. Part of her wonders if her father was softer, if he would have followed through with sacrificing them to the Bells the way that the Sparrows' father did. Did losing Five and Ben soften him? Or was the looming apocalypse the bigger problem?
Not that he wasn't still terrible, using one child against the other. But she'd like to think that the father who died might have been better than the father who lived. Or maybe that's still the child in her, not wanting to rationalize why her father didn't love her.]
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[Especially the one she just dealt with. Part of her wonders if her father was softer, if he would have followed through with sacrificing them to the Bells the way that the Sparrows' father did. Did losing Five and Ben soften him? Or was the looming apocalypse the bigger problem?
Not that he wasn't still terrible, using one child against the other. But she'd like to think that the father who died might have been better than the father who lived. Or maybe that's still the child in her, not wanting to rationalize why her father didn't love her.]
But he's dead now.
[Both of them.]